This morning I awoke, brewed coffee, cooked eggs, and sat down to read, pray, and journal.
I often use The Divine Hours to give structure to my time of prayer, to further saturate my mind with the words of Scripture, and to use well-worn words as I pay attention to God.
This week, there is an appointed prayer which reads:
Almighty God, the fountain of all wisdom, you know my necessities before I ask and my ignorance in asking: Have compassion on my weakness, and mercifully forgive me those things which for my unworthiness I dare not, and for my blindness I cannot ask; through the worthiness of your Son Jesus Christ my Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.
Those things we need, God knows before we ask. Yet we sometimes fail to present our needs before God either because of pride or ignorance. Knowing ourselves well enough to discern how and why we do not trust God fully is rooted in an evasive impulse that is hard to pin down, though I am quite certain it has something to do with the human condition.
Prayers like the one above help us humbly acknowledge that we do not always name or know our needs, yet God provides. In prayer we are wise to confess that because of sin we do not always bring our requests to God as we should, and because of our finitude we do not always share with God our deepest needs. The words unworthiness and ignorance, employed so well above, capture this perfectly. We are human.
Thankfully, that is not held against us, for it is through the worthiness of Jesus Christ that we receive mercy and forgiveness of sin. Our unworthiness and ignorance are overcome by the one who alone is worthy to receive honor, glory, and praise, the one who came to reveal the wisdom of God. We are redeemed through Christ's cross and resurrection.
When we do not succeed in checking ourselves, God is merciful. God extends mercy in sending the Holy Spirit, who inwardly convicts us of sin and brings to our awareness ways we are called to walk in holiness. While we are held accountable before God as individuals, we have been gathered collectively to the people of God, who exhort us to live as disciples of Jesus and encourage us to live a life of faithfulness. God calls us into a community to refine us. Not only is God merciful when we do not perceive our own shortcomings, God engages us personally and invites us into community to equip us with a deeper knowledge of ourselves. We are then sent forth to serve Jesus in light of that knowledge, loving God and loving neighbor.
God's mercy is inexhaustible. God is "compassionate and gracious; slow to anger, abounding in love." Remember your finitude, rest in God, and rejoice in the good news that Christ died for you knowing those things about you which you do not even know about yourself, supplying for your every need, and equipping you for meaningful service.